Life Update @ 21
I'm a 3rd Year student now It's actually so fucking sad, how different everything seems to be. Jannah back then would be very alarmed about due dates, putting effort into her work. Now I feel like I'm leeching off my friends because I barely can put myself together. It's like I've lost motivation. Not the will to live but the will to be bright. The will to be happy. The will of being 'me' again. Now my happiness is defined by what I get from gacha rolls (which is a clear gambling addiction at this point). I want the old Jannah back. The Jannah that used to be so happy about painting, about drawing. The jannah that had the energy to finish a novel a day and brag it to her friends. I missed that jannah. Now my friends are stuck with this jannah. The jannah who procrastinates more than she used to. The jannah who doesn't contribute as much as she did back then in group works. The jannah who wakes up at 11am because she sleeps late because she's distrac...